The love of year 2020 – by Mahnaz Badihian

The Love Of Year 2020

I feel I have a Poet lover 
Who knows all of my untold poems 
When I gave him my last poem 
He had read it years ago 
My lover is the most important poet I know 

He has hundreds of books 
Hundreds of amorous and philosophical thoughts 
With his poetic sense 
Through my dress he sees me Naked 
Both my body and my soul 
And shows those images in his poems 
He steps into my ventricles 
involuntarily I hear his steps 
In the expansion of my lungs 

My lover does not look like anyone or anything 
But I know him well 
I have not seen him in this town or
In this house 
But he is with me every second 
I found him many years ago 
When I was in love for no reason 
Or I needed to be in love 
I found him after I woke from a dream 
And felt I was crowded 
Inside me 
In my thoughts 
On my skin 
Because his imaginary presence suddenly
Took me out of my 
And thinking of him 
Gave away my loneliness, and a sense
Of belonging happiness and peace 

yesterday when the grieving for my mother 
Was a small sword poking the vision in my eyes 
It did not take long before my lover
Polished my thoughts 
And drank my tears 
Because he’s in love with me 

My lover is not a woman 
Is not a man, he has no traits of my
Son or my daughter 
Definitely he is not like any one
But surprisingly in my thoughts 
He plays everyone’s role 
And he plays his role as a lover the best 
He promised me before I die
One day he will appear 
In front of my eyes 
In my room 
In my house 
In my city 
I believe all he says 
I swear to him 
That he is everywhere 
Always.
I do not see any shadows around me!