Mar 192012
 
 March 19, 2012  Poetry

Celebrating NorouzWe had to soak a bowl of wheat or lentil
And swaddle them in a wet cloth for a week
And spread those sprouted grains of wheat in a
Beautifully shaped dish and let them grow to a weed
Then we would make little colored figurines
To represent us, so they could sit atop grass wheat
Then mother will go to “Charbagh” bazaar and buy
Beautiful little red fish to represent life
On the table we had hyacinth to freshen the room
Then came time to color eggs in those little pots
My mother would never forget to put
Open-paged Hafiz, on her chosen ghazal
While reciting the lines
Mother told us never sleep with old clothes
The night before uncle Norouz is coming
We were seven little dwarfs then

At the 13th day of Norouz
We had to throw those planted grains
In any river or running water we could see
To have old, sad roots taken away from us

Mar 022012
 
 March 2, 2012  Poetry

It was Monday morning and I was passing the big statue
In the lobby of Johns Hopkins hospital
Searching for Room 202, first interview with Mrs. Willis

She had a permanent smile on her lips
Her hands were wrinkled with red nail polish
Mrs. Willis looked me in the eyes
How do I pronounce your name dear
I said, MAH_NAZ, the exact same way it is written

Mrs. Willis with her MS degree said, I will try
MENAZ Manos, Maha-noss
Then gently she changed her voice and
Said, Can I call you Mary

Marry? Merry? Morry? Echoed in my head
I felt like evaporating morning dew
Like a branch of a tree under heavy rain
Like a fruit just fell from a tree

I looked Mrs.Willis in the eyes and said
“But my name is the charm of the moon
The name I was called by my mother, father
And by the man with black hair
Dark mustache and brown eyes
Mrs. Willis was looking at me with open eyes”

I said Mrs. Willis is my name more difficult
Than Deoxyribonucleic acid?

Mar 012012
 
 March 1, 2012  Poetry

Mahnaz Badihian

I regret those days


Those many long days I worked hard

Holding the IV basket

Filled with butterfly needles, tourniquets, alcohol pads

Walking from OR unit to internal medicine

And from GY oncology to surgical floor hours past midnight

In the heart of city of Baltimore

Thinking of my babies sleeping next to my husband in bed

 

Regret those early mornings, late nights

Pressing my eyes on those books

Memorizing the anatomy of canine and molars

And the position of tori in the roof of my mouth

Searching for the meaning of Melancholy,

Meaning of life between pages, time to time

 

I regret working Saturday through Friday

Long days, and not for a moment

Listening to the voice of a women in me

To my womb, to my tired, swollen legs 


I regret not being a woman, Instead I kept being

A mother, a wife, a daughter and a selfless being

There was a time with height of

My dreams and desires, I ignored

 

Finally I only can be a woman

I listen to my tender skin, to the novel in my heart

And a poem in my eyes

To my tired legs and thinning hair

 

Now I am a woman I never was

Maybe I can catch up with what ever

Left from the woman

I ignored and silenced for so long

….

Mahnaz Badihian

© 2012 Mahnaz Badihian